Epi-dreams!

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Has anybody had dreams about using the epi-pen or dealing with a major allergic reaction? Fortunately, I've , thus far, never had to use one on my 2-and a half-year-old PA son (diagnosed at one year), but I have had two VERY vivid dreams about needing to administer it. Each dream was a completely different situation - and,ironically, neither involved peanuts, but other potential allergens. In both dreams, I could see him developing hives and lip swelling and starting to get woozy, and I could feel my own adrenaline mounting. I calmly and methodically told somebody to call 911 and then administered the epi-pen, even holding it in for ten seconds. My son's symptoms abated almost instantly. Both times, when I awoke from the dreams, I felt so shaky, but I felt like I had "rehearsed" and worked through my fear of being able to do the right thing if I needed to to save my child's life. Hope I only have to dream these incidents in the future!

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[This message has been edited by Yonit (edited August 04, 2000).]

On Aug 4, 2000

Hi Yonit. I've had just one dream about giving the epi. To tell you the truth, I have no fears of administering it to my son. I just know when the time comes that this is what I have to do to keep my son alive. But a few months ago, I had a dream where I saw my son eat a pb cookie before I could stop him. So I was waiting for the hives to start and they never did. He just got completely stiff. My sister (who is an rn) was in the dream also. She told me to open his shirt and he had this square lump in his chest and she goes, "He's having an anaphylactic reaction!!" So then I completely froze and I couldn't even speak. She managed to get the epi-pen and administer it and he went limp in her arms and was perfectly fine. It was so weird. Then the very next night I had a dream that my baby son died in my arms. I woke up sobbing and absolutely couldn't stop crying. I guess my subconscious was trying to tell me something! Dreams are soooo strange!!! Deanna

On Aug 4, 2000

Deanna - isn't it interesting that you "have no fears" about using the epi-pen and yet your dream was about not being able to, and I DO feel anxious about whether or not I'll be able to - or actually I think the worry is more about if I will know WHEN he really needs it - and my dream was about successfully administering it.

Maybe the dreams just help each of us to acknowledge the aspects of ourselves which are not always at the forefront in our waking lives. For me that may be helping me realize that I can competently handle the situation despite my fears and worries. If I have another "epi-dream", I'll try to also pay more attention to what might be going on in our lives that may be triggering those issues. Thanks, Deanna, for sharing your dream! Sleep well!

Yonit

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On Aug 13, 2000

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On Aug 14, 2000

Sort of on this topic... One night last week I fell asleep in my son's room while reading to him. Later that night he started thrashing in his sleep and woke me up. Then he started talking in his sleep, his first words were "does it have peanuts in it?" I laughed, but was also thrilled that watching for peanuts would be on his mind to the point where he would dream about it.

On Aug 14, 2000

Yes, I have had dreams about my PA and having to administer the epi-pen to myself. The dreams are very scary. I see and feel myself swelling and I realize that the reaction is happening. Usually I am able to self-administer and I end up being okay. So far in the dreams I have risen to the occasion, and been able to fight off the panic. Still, this figures into our lives so much I guess it's natural to dream about it.

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