Newbie Peanut Free Mom ...OVERWHELMED
I'm Stephanie from San Diego. My 3 yr. old little boy just has a "significant" (per his pediatrician) reaction to peanut butter. His first...and last bite, so it seems. Three hours after he ate it, he had had an endless runny nose, swollen red ears, lips were swelling, red watering eyes, hives that were the size of my palm, horrible itchy and by the time he got medical attention he was starting to wheeze.
I'll be honest with you all...as I've been putting up a brave "informed mom" front for a week. I am terrifed.
I am terrifed of what COULD have happened to him...and I am overwhelmed and paniced about his future. To the point, my family is telling me to stop reading about all this and just to keep him safe and wait until we see the Director of Immunology at Rady's Children's Hosptial here in San Diego..on Aug. 26.
I am just simply overwhelmed over what I should feed him, social situations, how he's been in places before (the day before the incident we were at Angels Stadium watching the Red Sox and traveled by train) and had no issues, what testing will reveal, what it won't, WHY my family isn't FREAKING out like me, wondering if his 11 mo. old little sister will suffer the same fate, deadly afraid of another reaction, and EpiPen obessesed really even when its in his backpack I physically look for it several times while we are out...just for reassurance, which chocolate chips do I use ..or do I, etc. Everything from the tiny details ...to his future and adult life. OVERWHELMED.
I feel like the only one who really is understanding me is his private daycare provider. She runs a peanut free center. 4 out of the 12 kids in her care how have nut issues (he's the 4th one).
I know I am rambling. I am just so very scared. And ...sad. Is that normal?
I know information is power. Thus I am here. I just feel like ...it isn't realistic for me to be with him 24/7 as he grows up...(although I'd like to be!) ...and literally been praying for his safety. ...and some answers. The 26th seems like forever away.
I have alot of guilt too.. as he's eaten at Chickafil, loves donuts, eaten chocolate cupcakes from bakeries all over the place, loves cookies, etc. And he has been fine up until last Th. I feel like a bad mom for exposing him to all that prior to his reaction. But how was I to ever know? Anyways...I ramble.
My mission: to be informed and responsible for his safety. BUT to make sure he feels like he isn't missing anything ...and see to it he has a "normal" childhood, etc.
Guess I am asking for any newbie advice. And reassurance that I can do wade through this crazy maze of the Peanut Free World. Thanks for listening.