I'm Maddie and i'm 16 years old and i've been living with
I'm Maddie and i'm 16 years old and i've been living with PA my entire life. When I was younger my reaction wasn't very sever, I would have nausea, throw up and my breathing tubes through my nose would close up, so kind of half of anaphylaxis and a benadryl would revive me. In October, after consuming a hershey's chocolate bar (which i always eat) I began to become paranoid and kept looking in the mirror at my throat which appeared to be closing, which it wasn't. I began to feel like I couldn't breathe so my mom drove me to a nearby clinic and they said I was fine and I was just having an anxiety attack. After that happened every time I ate anything I would begin to have a panic attack thinking that there were peanuts in everything I ate.I would normally have up to 3 to 4 panic attacks per day. I began to grow depressed and went to a doctor. My parents and I thought I was barely allergic to peanuts, but turns out when I got tested for it, the results came in that I was highly allergic to peanuts. I saw a therapist to help with the panic attacks, which helped, but I look on ingredients labels on everything I eat even if I've already eaten it just to make sure. I refuse to try any new foods and I no longer consume any deserts. The panic attacks stopped in December, but last night my dad got my sister and I a milkshake at sonic. I usually get the oreo milkshake which I had eaten before thinking it was safe. I was sitting in my room and I had a taste in my mouth which tasted like a peanut. I panicked and spit it out searching for peanuts. I didn't see anything so when I tried another spoon full I tasted it again and when I spit it out I saw a small brownish orangish nut. I again panicked and ran to my moms room thinking I was going to have anaphylaxis. My mom gave me 2 benadryl's but I was still flipping out and having a major panic attack. I felt like my throat was closing up, but my mom told me that I was fine. I eventually calmed down and resumed to normal activities. I have never experienced full anaphylaxis with the throat before, and needless to say it is my biggest fear. I want to know how to prepare myself to actually knowing if I have consumed a peanut . I fear for a day in my life that I may suffer this reaction. The last time I had a peanut reaction was when I was in the 1st grade which I can hardly remember. If anyone feels this way I am here to discuss it. Thank you.