Anxiety about eating due to MFAs?
I have multiple food allergies (peanuts, tree nuts, shellfish, seafood). Ever since being diagnosed 10+ years ago, I've been anxious about having a reaction. And I've never had one. What I'm finding, though, is that my anxiety is INCREASING the more I deal with this, and I don't know why. I mean, shouldn't I look at my track record and see I've managed it well so far?? I just can't stop thinking about how eating one wrong thing might kill me. After I eat I spend the next 30 minutes to two hours checking my swallowing, looking at my face for swelling, etc. (not every time I eat, but at least twice a day). I've gotten obsessive about wiping my hands, not touching public things, etc. even though I know my reactions aren't contact-related. I get jumpy at the smell of peanuts, even though my allergy is not that sensitive to the smell.
Please tell me I'm not alone. I have no idea what to do. I tried therapy once but it didn't help much--because it's one thing to fight a fear when there's no real threat; it's another thing to fight a fear when there is a constant, real and present threat.